31 July

On the 30th July, it was definitely not a good day for me. Just for your info, I was going for my cousin’s party in the evening so I decided to wear something different and something I haven’t been wearing for quite some time so I ended up with Yellow tube with shorts and cardigan over. Throughout the day, I was happily listening to music and doing my work. And at the end of the day, after doing RJ and all, I checked facebook and SOMEBODY posted a post on facebook which was definitely about me but just merely bitched about me indirectly. She posted: “Omg, I can see the shape of her bra! Can't she wear a better bra? Ewww, disturbing image.” Seriously, if she had the guts to post it on facebook, why no guts to tell it to my face? If she was merely being a NICE FRIEND that she finds what I was wearing disturbing, then she could just have nicely tell me. She thinks that bitching about others is cool, especially when its been publicized? Well girl, it is totally not cool. You don’t see me bitching about others, not even about her. If she hates me because of last time I fought with her because of presentation? Well, my theory is work is work, fun is fun. I admit I am serious when I work but I have slackened a lot already. I am even still care for her as a friend and she still like that to me? That is totally way off limit dude, she should learn something about EVERYBODY HAS ITS LIMITS TO EVERYTHING. Anyways, after class I was sort of sad about it and thanks to adilah, kana and shaffie, they are really good friends. If any of you babes and guy are reading, THANKS SO MUCH, I LOVE YOU GUYS! (:

After the whole thing, I walked to the interchange where we went our separate ways. I went to Causeway point and bought 2 packets of garlic bread biscuit from John Little Sale for just $1 each. IT WAS ABSOLUTELY DELICIOUS! I bet Eilise would be jealous if she reads this. haha. I also bought 2 Tamagotchi from Kiddy Palace for my 2 little adorable cousins. Then I headed to Clementi which I waited for about 1h 30min for my dad to fetch me to the party. Luckily I also bought a sudoku book to accompany me.

 

On the 31st July, I just woke up, feel like vomiting. Anyways till now nobody msging me, feel dam sian. Whoever bored can SMS me kay?

29 July

On the 28th July, had a great time throughout the whole day. Firstly, ever since I posted the post “Can’t wait for a better tomorrow.” on facebook, I feel happier than usual. It keeps me waiting for exciting tomorrow. I admit that I was very slack on the today’s presentation and problem, however I did try to do some questions from the worksheet till my brains couldn’t work. haha. My classmate had planned a class games day 2. After school, I immediately went to look for Christina one level down from my class, and walked together to the sports hall. Throughout we played badminton, initially I was waiting for captain ball as I wasn’t good at badminton at all. But in the end, everybody was playing badminton instead. It was fun and tiring at the same time. I managed to play with Christina and I felt so good playing with her! haha. And we ‘discovered’ our suay side of the badminton court because whoever plays that side somehow coincidently kept missing the ball or had to end up running more. We finished playing around 6pm. After that I went to meet Lucas, he brought me to East Coast Park. And honestly, he definitely surprised me, what a great change from him! He treat me Subway, which I don’t recall ever eating a meal in any of the Subways in Singapore, anyways, we had Egg Mayo and IT WAS DAM DE-LISHHH! yumm. After eating, we walked at the beach side and sat at the break waters. There, we saw loads of cockroaches and A SEA MOSTER! Shaped like a rat but because of the lack of light, we couldn’t see exactly what it was so I named it the SEA MONSTER!! Went home at around 11pm. (:

On the 29th July, today I had Science module and it was complicated. But with the help of my trustable team mates, I managed to not get lectured by faci. Thanks! After school, Lucas and I planned to go East Coast Park to skate. but till now he hasn’t replied so might be following Christina to me Gigi and friends to Kbox. I’m in class now by the way and I got to go cause I’m going to meet Christina in her class now. Update ya later! (:

<< Left class at 4pm >>

Now I’m currently wasting Toa Payoh’s Mac’s space waiting for Lucas to come. Change of plans, no more going Kbox. When I was on the way to meet Gigi, Lucas replied so yeah. I rather go skating cause Kbox mostly chinese songs and I LOVE skating! I have been waiting for somebody to skate with me, be it ice skating or inline skating. Therefore I chose skating, besides, Kbox I need to pay $8 of which I am just going to end up just sitting there. (:

<< Left Macs at 5.48 >>

It is 9.45pm now, I just finished skating, now on the bus going home. Skating was sooo fun! I met 3 other guys working there and they are really cool! Well, I only spoke to 2 so they are cool! They showed me the balance thingy which was dam fun! It requires a lot of determination and balance to stay on the balancing strap. And  I totally did not expect Lucas to be a professional at skating, it was definitely very shocking. Most of the time, he was pulling me by the hand or pushing my back instead of me skating on my own. haha. I skate awhile and felt tired while he could carry on! Amazing! Anyways, I am so dread tired. The bus is super crowded and I feel like sleeping but sadly, I can’t sleep up. But overall, I am kinda happy with my life right now. Full of excitement. I hope this would never end. Will always be excited for a better tomorrow.(:

27 July

I’m currently in class now. I am really hating this moment. I obviously know some of my classmates dislike me. Reason I am not very sure, but so far I assume its about changing presentations. Well, for starters, I have to bad intentions for the presentation at all, in fact I only wanted to improve it. I admit it is my fault for not informing, but I have a reason for it and that was because the points were repeating! I did initially planned to inform her but when everybody else sends me their slides to combine it and when some even ask me questions which distracts my mind. I forgot what I was even thinking and that includes informing her of deleting one repeated point. Seriously, although its a mistake but I do avoid even accumulating all the slides cause it will only lead me to make my mistakes. If she is reading, I do hope it does not affect our friendship. Reason for not telling her in person was because she seemed to be avoiding it when I asked earlier.

I guess my life has really went down the hill and I’m really find it difficult to go through it alone.

Anyways, I’m planning to meet up with GiGi after school to shop for her work stuff.

< School ended at around 4pm >

I reached home about 9.30pm after walking around Toa Payoh with GiGi. It was fun catching up with her, told her my ‘stories’ and I totally feel better now. We went to a shop next to shop and save and the fried vegetable with salmon and loads of bbq sauce etc was de-lishh! We had one each and sat right outside the library which we were entertained by the bunch of people of all ages and size doing aerobics. Though it was evil to laugh at them, but some were really funny.

Anyways, I just finished my RJ and I am seriously very bored! Might plan to go watch glee. Love that show. Oh ya, just to include, I am starting to get over the breakup thing. Hope this ‘getting over’ part lasts long. (:

26 July

It’s 10.55pm now, feeling rather tired. Today was going great, despite the lesson layout for Cognitive P13 today, it was very messy and confusing. I understand that facilitator just wanted to make lessons interesting but I feel it’s rather complicated at the end. Anyways, after school, I rushed to finish the quiz and the evaluation and walked with my friends to causeway point. At causeway point, Hafizah and I walked around the shopping centre to find for our formal shirt for tomorrow! It was fun going out with her, we went from shops to shops and back to shops again. After that, we took the same train to Bishan and transferred to the circle line. There, she stopped at Serangoon, while I took to Paya Lebar and changed to Aljunied where I meet Lucas at the Geylang East Library. He’s accompanying me eat my dinner. (:

After dinner, we went to meet up with his 2 friends and everybody was talking in Chinese! They were a funny bunch of people. And even talked about dogs! Cute cute dogs! I love dogs. Fortunate to have companions like them, so trustable and lovable. They won’t betray it’s owner and will never have any lose feelings for it’s owner. Sighh.. I wish to have an adorable and good companions like them, it will also probably prevent me from having so much spare time! A few minutes ago, I was still thinking about the same situation (Justin), then I thought what an ass he is. Saying that he’s not ready for a relationship but ends up getting into a relationship a few days after the break up. Wth.

Tomorrow its communicative module and my class  needs to wear formal! Sian.. It does seem fun and all but seriously, it will be dam hot tomorrow wearing long sleeves. Anyways, I have 2 skirts to choose from, probably wearing the shorter one and bringing the longer one in case facilitator wants me to change. (:

25 July

Right now, I really feel I am all alone. I just need somebody but I can’t seem to find the right person to talk to. Everyday of my life for the past few years, I always had somebody to love me and I really loved him a lot. A few minutes ago, my heart seem to be dashed into pieces, seeing his facebook status changed from ‘Single’ to ‘In a relationship’. I just really hurts me so much, trying so hard to let go, but things does not seem to let me forget about it. Crying helplessly now, I really don’t want this to happen to me, why is this even happening to me. I lost my part of my family, close friends and now even my boyfriend. Seriously, can anything get any worst. Who can I really turn to when I am in need of somebody. I admit I still have feelings for him, a few years worth of feelings, its really hard to just throw it away. Can anybody out there just pull me out of this miserable hole that I’ve been digging for years! It’s really hard. It is like as if he totally forgotten about me. After so much we’ve been through, why is it so easy for him to let go while I can’t? I am really sad. Why is it just so difficult to get some company everyday so I won’t have to worry that I have nobody to turn to?!?!! Sighh… I hate 2010.

23 July

On the 21st July, my classmates and I stayed back after school to play badminton. And as time passed, it continued to netball shooting hoops and captain ball. I enjoyed the games with them and looking forward for the next game together as a class. After the games, at around 6.30pm, I met up with GiGi at Toa Payoh, supposedly to look for a job and do some catching up. We talked about our break-ups the whole entire time, majority its about her relationship and I feel SOME guys are really just bastards. Girls who really loved them, used up so much time to take care of them and really loving them but all they do is break their hearts. What did the girls do to even deserve these type of treatment from the guys?!! Seriously, some girls just want to settle down cause it just feels more secure just knowing somebody is there whenever something happens. Somebody who is trustable to the extend that girls can trust and share absolutely anything. And somebody that would never let go of her so easily and always companying her to avoid her being lonely and loser-ish. That somebody is not necessarily lovers and stuff, it can also be a friend, or just a companion. But even finding a good friend is so difficult, furthermore best friend??

Moving on…

On the 22nd July, after school, my classmates and I had a briefing to attend to, its relating to the Human Torch for the YOG 2010. It ended so late! sibei chiong hei! After the briefing, I went to meet up with my other friend, Ming. I’m suppose to meet him at PP earlier but because of the briefing, I was late and thus making him wait. Sorry! So far I know him, he is nice, but quiet. Anyways, we went to East Coast for a walk and sat down at a bench and talked till about 8.45pm? We talked about absolutely every single thing, some are even very random. Actually I am the random one, but OH WELL, its not a crime right! While talking, we noticed the strangest thing happening in the sky – A bright circular shape surrounding the moon. Was not sure what it was or why was it there. But its something I definitely have never came across. Overall, today was tiring, yet interesting. (:

Moving on….

On the 23rd July, it was the actual day for the Human Torch for the YOG. It was today in conjunction with the lighting of the Olympic Torch in Greek and on the 11th August, the Olympic Torch is supposedly coming down to Singapore and I’ll be there cheering as the torch is brought to my school. Anyways, today was fun! Spent the entire day and evening and almost the whole night with my friends. We were at Clarke Quay cause that was where the Human Torch event was held. The event was successful I guess, they had 2 98.7fm DJs as hosts and even Singapore Idol, Sezairi, sang a few songs and some other performances to wrap up the event. It was really awesome and cool sight to see the human torch being lit up or even participating and being one of the 1000s other student who are frantically waving their coloured torches in the sky. It was a totally good experience. After the entire event which was about 9.45pm, my friends and I went to the nearby flee market to do some….SHOPPING! We are all girls so what would you expect! hahah. Anyways, even if its a flee market, the stuff are so expensive! Seriously, not wanting to be a kiasu-auntie-wannabe, but I can find the same or similar thing but so much cheaper. Total rip off man. Anyways, saw some things I love! But told myself so many times that Clarke Quay is definitely not the right place to shop! hahah. yeah, left about 10.30pm? and I reached home at 11.15pm. So tired, shall hit the sack soon.

20July2010

Half the year has passed and I feel that I am so filled with bad luck.

Below shows the amount of 'suay-ness' i experienced throughout the whole 2010 so far.

1. I dropped my handphone straight down and the screen had a huge cracked which really broke my heart cause I had to spend $80 just to get it repaired.

2. One morning, as usual, I was carrying my bag, my towel and my laptop and when I was about to put down my bag and laptop on the bench in order to hang up my towel, my laptop dropped and later on, found out that the screen cracked and the laptop had parts that broke and when I switched on the laptop, I could only see a white screen with the obvious cracks. Had to spend $180 to fix the screen only. However, my lovely parents bought me a new laptop which I am currently using! (HP Pavilion dm4-1029tx) which cost $1399. Free 4GB upgrade ram and other really cool laptop stuff).

3. A few weeks later, my braces dropped off and I was afraid I would swallow the metal part. However, I had to wait till the next weekend to go fix it up which actually took me a few minutes but had to waste about 1 hour due to waiting.

4. The last but not least is that my 2 years worth of relationship is now over. Don't want to talk about it, neither do I want to think about it. Well, thats the reason why I am making a new blog. New blog, new start. Hope everything gets better in my life!

Now, I’m currently in class PAYING ATTENTION to the last group’s presentation. After school, planning to meet up with Nizam for a moviee, Despicable Me. I haven’t watch it yet, neither did he so yupp.

 

<<at 8.30pm>>

Despicable Me was extremely hilarious! You should watch it 3D, its so much nicer! Especially when its the part where its at the roller coaster, SO FUN! I have never experience sitting in a roller coaster before and I’ve never tried watching 3D in a cinema before, so exciting! But there was this auntie and her child sitting beside who are so irritating, the auntie kept checking her phone and the light from the phone was so distracting while the child beside was such a spoiler to the show cause he kept laughing so dam LOUD and kept talking so LOUDLY. Anyways Nizam is such a nice friend to hang out with, he’s a very funny guy. We ate at Long John Silver and the most accidental thing happened to me which totally embarrassed myself in front of him and everyone else at Long John. Left at 8.30pm and headed home smiling. (: